Hikmah

Case 1

Once, I saw this huge baju kelawar hanging in this shop. It was HUGE but most importantly was the length. It was loooong. Long baju kelawars are actually hard to find. Most of those that I own would be hanging a few inches from my feet. I knew that being in that baju kelawar would make me feel so comfortable. So I bought it straight away.

So there I was wearing that special baju kelawar that night. Indeed, it made me feel like I was wearing a blanket. So comfy. I loved it. I could wear it everyday. Then suddenly Mama told me that we were going to have some guests tomorrow. So, Azie/Bibik had to start working. And when I washed the dishes, I struggled to not let the huge flowy sleeves from being an extra dish washing cloth and getting soaked wet. And when I vacuumed the floor, I struggled to not let the very long baju that trailed along the floor to get sucked in the vacuum. And when my hands were trying to reach the ceiling to clean the cobwebs, the baju being so huge kept covering my face thus making me hard to see.


Case 2

I have a sink in a small part of my room. Not in the bathroom. But in my room. Yea, I know. Sounds weird. But I love that sink. I don't need to go inside the bathroom to brush my teeth or wash my face. But one day, the pipe kinda broke. And water was spilling out in my room. Remember, the sink is not in the bathroom. So the rugs in my room got wet. And I was so angry for the sink being in my room. I placed a pail where it leaked but the water was dripping so fast that it would spill every hour or so if I forgot to empty the pail. And when it did, I had to keep mopping the floor or the whole room would get wet. It was really tiring. But when the plumber came and fixed the problem and when everything was settled, I found out that my floor was squeaky clean. Actually they were shining.


Case 3

I needed to find a kain of one of my baju kurung that I haven't worn for quite some time. But as my eyes searched for it in my closet, of course it wouldn't be there. And as usual, I would say, "kalau nak guna tu, memang takdak," It's always like that. Knowing that a visual search didn't work, I knew that I had to use a hands-on method. So there I was, taking everything out from the closet to find that one kain. And to my surprise, I discovered some other things in there. A piece of paper from my diary that I guess I tried to get rid off once but was still in there. Reading it made me laugh. And a bag! I found a bag that I haven't used since I was in Form 2. I've forgotten about it. But it's so nice finding it again. I found some other interesting objects that were once a part of me. And of course, right at the bottom of all those pile of things, there it was- the kain. And my closet was just so neat afterwards that it looked like it came straight from a home designing magazine.

So what's my point here? That I'm an unorganized person who likes to wear baju kelawar day and night? Well, yeah, maybe that too. But what I really want to say is that, things happen for a reason. Hikmah. We, Muslims use that word a lot. And we should. "Ada la hikmahnya tu.." But not as an excuse but because we believe that Allah has His own way of showing or telling us things.

Some even believe that even accidents are not accidents. Yes, it was an accident but it wasn't intended to be. There's always something unaccident about it, something really certain. Something that's meant to be. We may think one thing is best for us, (like the baju kelawar) but it finally turns out to be the worst. And vice versa. We just never know.

So whatever it is that I'm going through- be it huge or simple matters, I just always have faith in hikmah from Allah. Allah knows best because He is the best of the best. We try our best and we pray that He'll give us the best but when things don't go our way, hey, it's not the end of the world. Learn from it and move on. :)



“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.” -Surah Al-Baqarah(2) ayat 216.

The Notebook II

This hols has been a bit slow for me. I've managed to refrain myself from counting the days each time I see a calendar, but I can't really stop my mind from doing calculations by itself. And so, counting makes the waiting much more dreadful. Been trying to keep myself busy but well, at the end of the day, there's always the counting.

Anywaaays, to keep myself occupied I've been burying myself in books. I've run out of new books to read as me and my brothers have actually recently discovered that we should keep ourselves in a slightly tighter budget. So yeah, the sole reason I would be in a shopping mall right now, (yes, during this Year End Sale) is just to window shop. But knowing that when I'm engrossed in a good book, it actually makes me become less aware of my environment or more particularly the time, I still try to find something to read.

And going through the books I own, The Notebook was just like calling my name. I know that I've made a review about it before. But.. Aaa, the book is just too beautiful. Too beautiful. I don't normally do repeats, be it books or movies. Because I like surprises and there's no surprise reading a book or watching a movie that you know what's going to happen next. But in this case, I felt like I've never read the book before.

I first read The Notebook 2 years ago, and I guess I was a different person back then. I was still melted by the sweetness of the words- being a born mushy person and all but it just amazes me to notice how different my emotions are and how I could so deeply relate myself to what Noah and Allie go through in the novel, as I read it now. 2 years older. 2 years more of.. well, experience in life. 2 years of growing and much more mature relationships.

So I just thought like sharing a letter Noah wrote to Allie in the novel with you guys. Letters. How could you not love letters? So here it is;

My dearest Allie,

I don't know what to say anymore except that I couldn't sleep last night because I knew that it is over between us. It is a different feeling for me, one that I never expected, but looking back, I suppose it couldn't have ended another way.

You and I were different. We came from different worlds, and yet you were the one who taught me the value of love. You showed me what it was like to care for another, and I am a better man because of it. I don't want you to ever forget that.

I am not bitter because of what has happened. On the contrary, I am secure in knowing that what we had was real, and I am happy we were able to come together for even a short period of time. And if, in some distant place in the future, we see each other in our new lives, I will smile at you with joy, and remember how we spent a summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. And maybe, for a brief moment, you'll feel it too and you'll smile back, and savor the memories we will always share together.

I love you Allie.

Noah

I think it's sweet and heartbreaking at the same time. Kan? :') Oh, and good luck for tomorrow guys!

Reminder #7

Azie,

If you know that the parents of any of your close friends, housemates or relatives are away for a long time like they're performing their Hajj or are on a long vacation or something, please ask how they're doing time to time. A simple , "So, how are you?" would be nice. You know, just to show that you're there. Azie, of all people, you know how much you appreciate that simple gesture.

Ganu

Went to Terengganu last month with Syiqin for Kak Amal's (my lovely housemate) brother's walimatul urus. Stayed at Kak Dib's ( my also lovely housemate) in Kuala Terengganu. But it rained so badly the next day that the roads heading to Besut, which is where the kenduri was, were closed. And that very night, Kak Dib's house was also flooded. See how Allah works? Me and Syiqin came to Terengganu to experience the flood and be happy helpers for Kak Dib's family. For their great hospitality, it was the least we could do actually. :)

But it was a new experience for me. Being in a place where it rained the whoooole day that it made you want to sleep allll day. I didn't really realize how sunny Penang was until I arrived there the next morning and was able to see the sun. We couldn't see the sun in Terengganu. So yea, that was new.

Thanks Kak Dib and family for the great food. We sure had our tummies full. And for being so nice. :)

And Selamat Pengantin Baru Kimi and Ani. Moga bahagia ke akhir hayat. Kak Amal, we're sorry we couldn't come. We'll come to yours nanti k? ;)