Saturday, July 28, 2007

a lot to say.

I'M HOME!!!!! =D

i kinda like suddenly made up my mind to come home this weekend because suddenly i felt sick after 3 weeks in uitm shah alam. homesick that is =p. so here i am. and oh yeah, there's another reason why i'm home this weekend. a reason that strongly insisted me to come home. hehehe.

uitm shah alam.

nice? yes.

big? huge!

fun? sometimes.

the hostel? niiice.

the food? ok laa.

the people? weird. haha.

seriously the people here are just plain weird. weird in what way? well i'm not sure how to describe it. its kinda like in the movie 'mean girls' punya weird. got me? people act too much and sometimes become plain dumb to act cool. yeah i know this is shah alam and you're supposed to be fantastic or something? oh c'mon..... if you really are that fantastic, it would shine out without you having to show it off. yeaa, i can see that most of the teslians here are great. they speak English like an english or americans or aussies. (haha!) and their ideas in class are just superb. i'm amazed by them. really. compared to me, i'm like still in pre tesl and they're like in masters. haha. thats exaggerating. but yeah, they're good.

the lecturers are differrent too. they're more open. open in several aspects. ;)   maybe its the culture for urban people. urban? yeaa, i think they're urbanised enough to be called urbanised people. i think its the culture for them to be so overly open minded about issues that should be discussed in a more sensitive manner. lecturers are just humans btw. what they say can be completely true and some can be totally false so it depends on the listeners to take in whats good for them and play the deaf ear to the things that i believe shouldnt have been said at all. but i think its a good thing because at least we get to argue in class. (yeah rite. like i am cukup berani ja nak argue. haha) i wish i had the courage to speak out what was in my mind but i'm azie yg susahnya nak buang dia punya malu tak bertempat tu. but i should really try becoming more extrovert. like my classmates that are originally shah alam students. they're so outspoken. they can speak whatever they want in class. with utmost confidence. something that i've never been able to do because takut salah and malu kalau tergagap. hahaha.

classes have been fun. but somehow i enjoy classes during pre more. i miss learning grammar with ms mel. i miss doing presentations for my familiar classmates. i miss writing essays. i mean essays that are fun. now, we only get to do essays about certain issues. boring issues. but i'll survive. insyaAllah. and the jadual here is nice. only 15 credit hours so that means a lot of time spent back at mawar. doing what? sleeping. haha. what else. and oh yea, i do some reading. cleo is very educational. ;)  and there's always the 2 wackies in my room. i share my room with diana. its supposed to be a 2 persons room but we made it into a 3 persons room because syiqin became more than a loyal visitor. haha. she brought a toto from home and sleeps on the floor. not everynight. like 2 days in a week she would go back to her room and sleep there but most of her time is with us. those 2 are just completely wackos laa. lagi2 syiqin. ya Allah, living with those two is like living with tom and jerry. (sory, i dont watch much cartoons so thats the only close example that i can give. haha). they're constantly fighting and arguing. and screaming at the top of their lungs. (hmm, tom and jerry mn ada jerit kan? nvm). luckily our room is at the hujuuung skali. so jerit2 pun orang tak dengar sangat kut. kut laa. living with them is like practising to become a mother with 10 kids. and all of the kids talk too much. yupp. thats how it is. but it wouldnt be right to be here without them. they're my besties since pre. and we're goin to finish our degree together with excellency. insyaAllah. (lambatnya lagiii. 7 more sems to go!)

haaa, lupa plak. the most adventurous thing in shah alam is the roller coaster ride we have to go through every morning to go to class. because our fac is at section 17 but mawar is at section 2. so we have to take two buses. and kuar 1 hour early. if class starts at 830, we're already waiting for the bus at 730. totally like going back to school kan? dahla intec tu memang mcm skolah pun. but now that we're used to it, the rides are quite fun. yea, i get a lot of bruises by swinging on that thing that we're supposed to hold on to when standing up and by bumping on tiangs and on other people when the bus driver stops abruptly. but yea, its all good.

and oh yea, on 12th august, i'll be entering the busana muslimah competition. hahaha. yea, i know. me? modelling? haha. even when i was signing up i couldnt stop laughing. my friends insisted so much that i enter so yea why not. i'm modelling with muslimah clothes ja pun. and its just a show for mawar occupants. meaning girls only. its actually just to collect the activity coupons. klau aktif, bleh la duk mawar lg sem depan. tak yah cari umah sewa. huhu.

being so near to kl makes the tendency for us to go shopping or maybe just window shopping higher. but i dont have that much money. been using a lot of money here. makan banyak sbb banyak guna tenaga. (alasan). and there's so many beautiful jubah kat kompleks pkns tu. nak sgt beli tapi xdak duit. =(  been hoping and praying that i'll get a lot of money from the ptptn loan. its supposed to kuar semalam btw. tapi tgk xdak pa2 pun. but what i did find out was this:

Bagi membantu ibu bapa atau penjaga meringankan beban dalam menanggung perbelanjaan pendidikan anak-anak penentuan jumlah pinjaman adalah bergantung kepada had pendapatan seperti berikut:

a)  RM3000.00 dan ke bawah - pinjaman penuh

b)  RM3001.00 ke RM5000.00 - pinjaman sebahagian

c) RM5001.00 dan ke atas     - pinjaman yuran

so frustrating laaaa. if i knew this earlier, i would tipu sunnat when filling the form. this is not fair. i need the money. really, i do. nak kena beli buku banyak ni. buku plak smua expensive. around 200 bucks each tau x . haha, yea rite. nak beli henfon barulaa ;(

life has been a lot different here compared to melaka. but i can say that i'm having fun. weird at times. but fun. just hoping that i could really give my best for this sem. i need to get an almost perfect pointer.  prayImage1095 for me ya? =)

look at how i've changed! hahaha.

(left was a pre teslian in alor gajah and the right is a B.Ed teslian in shah alam.)

Thursday, July 5, 2007

here we go again.

i've just finished packing and like i said, it could fit a truck. but its ok. aiman ada nak angkat smua. ;) bangah xdak. if bangah ada, it would be much easier. i wouldnt need to help at all. i mean, what are brothers for rite?

we're leaving this evening. when papa gets home after work.

i'm excited to meet my friends again but i'm not that excited in facing the house of terror. but well, maybe its not going to be that bad. keeping myself positive here.

shah alam's going to be fun!! yeaaah!!

ok lah, nak kemas2 bilik skitla. so c ya again next time! hahaa. so cheesy.

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

roti canai vs capati.

tadi basuh kasut sports. kasut tu dah buruk. been using them since form 4. ala, kasut sports power yg kat bata tu. nanti ada koko. ala bosannyaa.

actually i have nothing interesting to write but saja nak write gak. because i'm bored. and i'm sleepy. i'm not supposed to be sleepy because i woke up at.. well, nevermind.

had last night's roti canai for breakfast. or was it lunch. both la. n tadi pi ofis papa. its funny how papa's staff are just so extra polite with us. but i prefer papa's staff in perlis more.


view from papa's ofis.

why am i so sleepy nih? was it the roti canai. i dont really like roti canai actually tapi sayang plak klau tak makan. if i dont eat it, it'll become frozen in that fridge and even the mighty microwave cant help it to become tender and soft again. i so love capati more. maybe its because i have less guilt in eating it. because capati doesnt have that much fat and cholestrol as roti canai. but its the taste of capati thats just much more yummy. i could eat capati everyday. for breakfast, lunch and dinner.

i should be packing. because God knows how much stuff i have to bring. i've got things that could fit a truck. because ya know, the house is not furnished and all. so since i'm going there with a car, i better bring whatever i need to bring. sebab pasni, for sure i'll just go there with a bus. wouldnt want to angkut iron, kettle and all that when riding a bus.

aaaah, ngantuknya. nak nap la kejap. kejap ja.

be positive la azie.

we're going tomorrow and i havent packed a single thing. malas. not in the mood. why do i have to be so negative about this house thing. i mean its not going to be sooo bad. yea, well the house is tiny. and it needs a lot of cleaning. and there's no bed. no desk. no kipas. no nothing. but well, like i said before, at least i'll have a roof to stay under. a roof. and well i'll have floors. and walls. and doors. that should be enough rite?


Tuesday, July 3, 2007

everythings gonna be ok.

i already typed like 2 pages just now and suddenly i pressed apa ntah, it all disappeared. tension btul when that happens. so now nak type balik pun dah cam not in the mood. dah x ingat. =( i have bad memory, remember?

but i still want to express everything. but this is the more short version la.

we've found a house. mira's friend found it for us. and it has been such a chaos. being like a thousand miles away from that place and having to deal with all this. i mean i dont even know how that house looks like. will it be comfortable for us. i dont even know if there will be beds or not. takut jadi cam orang korea plak. tdoq guna tilam ja. ;( mira said the house is 2 tingkat but it only has 2 rooms. initially, we were going to stay just the 5 of us and then we got news that our other friends who at first didnt get uitm, has suddenly got uitm. so we're gonna stay the 7 of us. including shiqin. yeay!! =D i was so sad when i knew that shiqin didnt get uitm but now she'll be living with us too. so very da syok la. me, diana and shiqin will be staying together.


i've setteled the payment today. i cant believe that i'm barely 19 and i already have to stay at my own renting house.  i know that its about time that i learn about responsibilities and stuff. not to be such dependent on other people. well i have been independent practically since 13. i only went back home on the weekends to basuh baju. and i did it by myself too. i wash them, i sidai and i iron by myself. i never let mama did them for me. i was just a lil bit dependent on the washing machine. so i guess i could call myself independent. but then renting  a house means, we'll have to settle the water and electric bills. and  then how bout cooking? will we have to take turns? aiyaaa, i'm not that good of a cook. i think la. i mean i can cook the best maggi in the world. and i make the most delicious toasts. but well. thats about it. haha. kidding. i cook. yup, i do. yup, azie cooks. ok, next topic.

its near intec so i hope we could just walk to our class. mama suh blajaq bawak motor but i refused. she said papa can buy me a scooter if i know how to use one. but i said i'd rather walk. ececey, skarang blehla blagak cakap nak jalan. nnt mulala, panas la , jauh la, apa la. see? i'm crictisizing myself. i know my own weaknesses. thats good rite? alaaa, what did i wrote just now aa? dah lupa laa.

mmmmm, i just hope everything will be fine. been praying non stop that Allah will make everything easy for us. well atleast i dont have to worry about not having a roof to shelter me when i get there. and i'll have my buddies by my side. so i'll be ok. insyAllah.

i have to say i'm excited of starting my degree. cant wait to get in my studies again. haha. i cant believe i just said that. kat skola dlu, i would never say such thing. i hate having to study in school. guess now i'm a changed person. yup, azie now enjoys her classes and feels high spirited each time a new semester begins. go tesl!! papa would be so proud knowing this. =p

ok lah. mama panggil makan roti canai plak dah. papa baru balik. its 10.36pm and i'm going to eat roti canai. ahh, who cares.