"Kaklang, nak bagi apa kat Papa utk Father's Day?"
and i couldnt answer. why? because in my head i was saying,
"Alaaa, hadiah Kaklang pun Papa tak bagi apa lagiii"
and then because of my pause, my dad asked my brother,
"Bangah, nak bagi apa kat Papa?"
"Nak bagi motor baru!", he replied.
and we laughed. (it was a joke. because of the increasing price of petrol and all. gettit?)
anywayy, only then it striked me. oh God, how selfish can i be?? all i think about is myself. its Father's Day! Father's. and yet, i think about i myself.
when i was little, i was my dad's girl. its always like that, kan? daughters with fathers.
i remember this one time, my dad asked me if i wanted to go see goats. yupp, my dad's a very kampung guy. he's always amazed with goats, cows, and all that. (he's been having this idea to have our own farm at our back yard. but till now, the only animal we own is a fat cat). so ofcourse i was delighted to follow him. i loved it when it was only the two of us. didnt matter if we were just going to go see goats at some farm.
so i got in the car with him. smiling from ear to ear. and just when my dad got the car out of the garage, suddenly he appeared. my brother, waggling his hands screaming,
"Japp! Nak ikut jugak tengok kambing!!"
and i said,
"takyah tunggu Bangah, Pa.. Jumlaa. Cepat cepat! Japgi dia sampai! Tinggal dia!"
my dad said,
"Kaklang, Papa tak penah ajar anak-anak Papa buat perangai macam tu. Biarla Bangah nak ikut sekali. Apa salahnya."
so apa lagi, merajuklaaa. all i wanted was some father-daughter time. just between me and my dad. but he thought i just wanted to let my brother get mad for being left out. but at the end, it was even fun having my brother to play with the goats. we both got his equal attention.
my dad is a great guy. he always think of others more than himself. and that is also the reason for him to expect the same thing from everyone- especially his kids. if we keep saying, "me.. me.. me..", he would then ask about, "oh, then how was your brother/friend/etc..?" it has always been about sharing and caring about other people besides us.
so what am i giving my dad for Father's Day?
ohhh nothing.. just endless supply of respect, honour, and LOVE. ;)
I LOVE YOU, PA.
HAPPY PAPA'S DAY!