Monday, November 24, 2008



You Make It Real for Me, James Morrison

There's so much craziness, surrounding me
There's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me
You make it real for me

When I'm not sure of, my priorities
When I've lost sight of, where I'm meant to be
Like holy water, washing over me
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong, but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance, and uncertainty
But I can find the words, you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for me, yeaaa

And I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

Everybody’s talking in words
I don't understand
You got to be the only one
Who knows just who I am
Your shinin in the distance
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place
That I want to be
Is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more
I have to learn
But if you're here with me
I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere,
Somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

You make it real for me

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Creative thinking required

i found my brother's SPM papers scattered around my mom's room. there was only one paper that i was interested in, Bahasa Inggeris 1119/1 (of course).

and you guys would not believe what was one of the questions for the Section B: Continuous Writing.

3. My perfect future husband and wife.

What??? this is SPM. these kids have just pratically entered teenhood. and you're telling them to talk about their spouses? HAHAHAHAHA. i thought we're not even allowed to have boyfriends/girlfriends during school. let alone think about our husbands and wives? oh or am i still living in the Stone Age?

but i do have to agree that this question is kinda interesting. i wouldnt mind being one of the examiners just so that i could read what 17 year olds ideas of a perfect husband or wife would be. kids are getting smarter and much more mature nowadays, arent they? so perhaps their answers would include; responsible, kind, caring, respectful rather than tall, handsome/pretty, wealthy, sexy, etc.

i wonder if i would choose that question if it was in my SPM. i dont think i would. too risky if you ask me. i mean, what would an adult think when a 17 year old starts to describe his/her future husband/wife? it would sound kinda... well.. dreamy. not that being dreamy is bad. i've been a dreamer all my life. but for the SPM? i think i prefer staying on the solid ground.

if it was me answering the paper, i think i would choose no. 4.

write a story ending with:

"....Now I realise the value of a true friend."

sounds boring but safe.

just FYI,

these are the other options

1. Write about a person who has worked hard to succeed in life.

2. Examinations- good or bad?

5. Stars

what would you choose?

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Soon, please come

I carry your heart with me, EE Cummings

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)

I am never without it (anywhere I go you go, my dear;

and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)

I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)

and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows

higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

for i know my heart is with you..

i miss you :(

Saturday, November 15, 2008

2 Down, 1 to go!

Aiman used to hate going to his Montessori. he would cry every morning and made lame excuses so that he wouldnt have to go.

but one day, my parents made a deal with him.

"Aiman, if you be a good boy and go to school today, on the way back home, we'll stop by the bakery and get whatever you want."

my brother, a carbs-lover like me, couldnt resist the offer. so every morning, he would try his best to be a "good boy."

that, my friends is what we call Extrinsic Motivation. when students are extrinsically motivated, they will do something to obtain something else. in this case, a cheese coated bun or a chocolate sprinkled donut.

hehehehe. sorry, im in the middle of cracking my brain like many other people out there tonight studying psycho but just had to have a break to share some crumbs.

i just cant focus no matter how hard i try. i keep repeating, "oh esok balik!!! YEAY!!"

after 8 tormenting weeks (a new record), im finally going back to sweet home georgetown tomorrow night.

guess i'll see ya guys at penang in the following month or so, huh?

Good Luck buddies and Happy Hols!!!!!!!


Monday, November 10, 2008

BI kena A, ok!


thats my baby brother.

he was wearing my favourite sheep jacket.

and my favourite pair of gloves.

"kawabangga dude!" he used to say.

as much as i want to treat him like my baby brother.

i guess i cant anymore.

he's taller than me! aaah tidaaak!

and he's 17.

my baby brother is 17.

(what's next?? getting his wedding invitation?? ohhhh)

Aiman is sitting for his SPM tomorrow.

Ya Allah,

though he still likes to wear my polo t-shirts and pretend that it has always been his.

though he saves my name as "Kolot" in his phone.

though he always call me names that should not be exposed here.

please please please help him all the way.

may he succeed dunia akhirah.

because Ya Allah, in my heart he'll always be my baby brother. always.


you go dude!! make us proud!! kawabangga!!

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Ainul Mardhiah

when choosing a new outfit, the questions that i need to answer before i continue my steps to the cashier are;

"would i be grounded for buying this?"

"would i still be wearing it next year?"

"would papa ask me, "ikut hukum boleh ke pakai macam tu, kaklang?""

"would he eye me differently if i wear it?"

and of course the most ultimate question;

"would ALLAH approve me wearing it,"

being a girl, i have this irrational need to buy endless amount of clothes.

sesungguhnya Allah SWT sukakan kesederhanaan dan bencikan pembaziran

i knowww. and i think i am actually practicing moderation. am i? well im trying.

but oh, dont i just get all excited when i see new trends in those fashion websites and magazines. though i dont look at all like a fashionista to you, i have this very very very deep enthusiasm(?) for fashion. i love reading fashion mags, i love watching any shows with runways on them, i love visiting fashion blogs, i admire fashion designers, i love looking at clothes and imagine that i could wear them.

uhuh. a thought that always occur to me(and i believe other hijabians out there) when we see out of bounds outfits is,

"if only i was allowed to, i would wear this."

but the thought just has to stop there because if i think too much about it, i'd probably buy it anyway and save it for special events at home with my future husband hahahaha.

but my dear ladies, dont worry. you know the sacrifice that we have to endure right now is totally for our happiness here after, right?

we just have to believe that our life now is short. (life's short so enjoy it to the max?) well okaaay. but in Islam, everything has its limits. and believe it or not, these limits are not made out of the blue. everything has a reason. what we are confining ourselves into right now is to make us become the most beautiful angels  in Jannah.

if we think what we're wearing right now is going to make guys drop their jaws with admiration, then bear in mind that if we obey His rules now, in Jannah, we'll be 70 times prettier than the angels. oh and did you know, the ugliest angel in Jannah, is the most beautiful woman on earth? most beautiful woman. hmmm. a Miss World perhaps? and she's the ugliest in Jannah.

so who cares if im not a head-turner on earth for not wearing the latest trends, for draping myself in layers and layers of black clothes, for not being able to show just a lil bit of skin? because my mission is to be Miss Jannah for my husband in the life here after. insyaAllah :)

so yea, although i leave Forever 21, Topshop, Miss Selfridge, Dorothy Perkins, MNG,  with a sinking feeling for not being able to wear most of their clothes(also because of financial factor hehehe)  , im just hoping that it will cause Allah's mercy when i will need it soon. ameen.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

No excuse

Rasulullah SAW bersabda,

Mata boleh berzina dengan melihat, lidah boleh berzina dengan bercakap, tangan boleh berzina dengan berpegangan. Kaki boleh berzina dengan berjalan ke arah tempat maksiat. Hati pula boleh berzina dgn merindui, mengingati dan membayangi si dia.

(HR Bukhari dan Muslim)

Astagfirullahalazim. :(

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Uuuu. Nak balik dah!

Selamat Berjuang rakan-rakan dan orang tersayang!

Include me in your doas, please?

May Allah help us all.


hehehe saja letak lagu ni. ailaik. :p