2008. Where shall I begin? Or rather, where shall I stop? Another year is bidding farewell. But to me, everything has just started. Jusssst started.
This year, I turned 20. 20 years of living. Being 20 to me now means growing up and change for the better. I mean, if not now then when, right? But ya Allah, you know that I need your help. Lots of it, please? :(
This year, more nice people have joined my VIP list. The more the merrier, they say. My family who has always had a reserved place stays at the top of the list as always. And below them, the list goes on and on. Thank you, ya Allah. Without them, I’m nothing.
This year, he came. Too much things to say. But for now, I’ll say alhamdulillah. : ) Bless us, ya Allah.
This year, studies have improved. Yes, work works. But work still works without work if You want it to work. Everything is from you, ya Allah. Thank you.
This year, I became Teacher Azie. Now I’m surer than ever. I was borned to be a teacher. Insya Allah a teacher that doesn’t just teach but shares and cares.
This year, I think less of what people say. I still do sometimes and it hurts me to know that people would believe such things but then again, it all comes back to me. Things just don’t come out from nowhere. I must’ve started something. Unintentionally, maybe. But still I did. So I take the circumstances. Things like this, it makes us think. Without it, perhaps I’d be all tangled up without realizing it. Yes, everything happens for a reason.
This year, there are so many things that I’m grateful for. No, I’m not a daughter of a millionaire nor am I drop dead gorgeous that makes people go gaga. But for the fact that I’m not either of those or even close, I’m grateful. Life. We know that it’s short. But we either ignore it or think that, “No, I won’t die young. That wouldn’t happen to me. I’ll have time to change when I’m older. Perhaps after I retire, ” We never really know, do we? I hope in 5 years time I’ll be a devoted mom and an inspiring teacher. But will I ever reach that time? I wish I knew.
This year, my hopes haven’t end. In fact, they have increased a lot more. I accept that as a good thing. Like I said last year, what are hopes without effort? So my main effort for next year, is to change for the better. It is time to lessen the fikir dunia already. So here, I ask all of you to remind me if I get out of hand. I really do want this to happen. But I’m afraid that I’ll turn all weak again and just forget everything. Ya Allah, help. Please..
This year, I’ll end with a big THANK YOU to all the nice nice people around me. May Allah bless you. For the not so nice, I thank you also for letting me learn the true harshness of life. Alhamdulillah, I have never stopped realizing that I’m this sinful being who never stops making mistakes. And for that, I apologize.
This year, I can’t say thank you enough to ALLAH swt for everything. And I pray that I never will stop thanking Him for I truly don’t deserve everything that He has given me. Alhamdulillah.
Next year, is something that I look forward to. I don't know what will happen but i do pray for more joy, more togetherness and more love. Insya Allah. Happy New Year 2009, peeps! May you have a good one. :D